Ever have something so hard going on in your life that you struggle to wrap your mind around it? Me too.
Right now I have three of those things happening.
I’m working on controlling the thoughts I allow to settle in my mind. Working to clear space and be okay with grief and trusting God when things look dismal and there may be no way out of a hard thing.
I’m chewing on some truth to sustain me, until such time as the hoped-for deliverance comes, knowing that if it doesn’t, there must be a reason why.
In the book of Esther, I am dazzled by her ability to live above her feelings, which she so clearly had to do. If you really get into research like I do, you will see that at every turn she had to face things that she wouldn’t have chosen, and walk through them with grace and dignity and wisdom. I know, I know, you are taught to read that story with a certain amount of romanticism, but Xerxes was no Prince (King) Charming, and life in a Persian harem was no picnic.
She was a girl who had to play at being a woman, and a clever one at that. She managed to do it very, very well. I believe God anointed her to carry what burdens she did.
I’m constantly going before my King’s throne lately too, trying to obtain favor, seeking grace. For others and myself, I’m asking for a measure of Esther’s spiritual elixir.
I was comforted this morning by Psalm 127:2 which says:
It is vain for you to rise up early
To sit up late,
To eat the bread of sorrows (emotional pain)
For so He gives His beloved sleep.
Here’s my favorite:
“Blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay green, and they go right on producing delicious fruit” (Jeremiah 17:7-8 NLT).